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There Is No God (I Think)
Posted On Thursday April 12, 2007 By Stacy Horn
I actually don’t remember the date. It was when I was confirmed by the Catholic Church, whenever that was. According to my understanding, I was agreeing to becoming a member of the church, and all that that implied. To me that meant, if I was presented with the choice of admitting I was a Catholic and getting thrown to the lions or denying I was a Catholic and living, I was agreeing to not deny being a Catholic.
But I knew that in reality, I would do whatever it took to not be eaten by lions and if that meant denying I was a Catholic, I’d do it. I had already had lots of problems with religion and Catholicism, but the guilt of lying about agreeing to be eaten by lions plus the whole martyrdom thing. I mean, Christ died for our sins. Since God controlled everything, there was no need for his son to be tortured and murdered, the whole matter could have been settled any one of a million other ways.
I told my parents I was done, no more religion for me. Since most of the world believes in some form of God, that has put me in a relatively tiny minority ever since. I know that many many many people much smarter than me believe in God, but nonetheless, as far as I’m concerned, on this point, most of the world is kinda nuts.
Tags: catholicism, church, god, guilt, jesus, sins